shitty
I'm not in the best of my moods now, but since i haven't updated for so long, oh well here goes...
first let me start off by saying i screwed up BIG-TIME for my CA. I don't know why... Isit because i haven't worked hard enough? Well i guess so. These few weeks have been hectic and hell yes stressful. haven't been able to dig out any time to really sit down and study. Unlike those Co peeps. Dnt is taking ALOT out of my life, however, regretting the decision i made is not an option. Since i can't have as much time as them, i will have to sacrifice. But sacrifice wad? I haven't been blogging, watching tv or anything. But the work just pile up and up.
Even my family realises that im totally STRESSED OUT. Poor time management? maybe. But effort to keep up? 9/10. haven't been able to achieve the one final mark.
Im tired. Physically and mentally. Everyday, i'd doze off in at least one lesson. last year was Ngs lesson, this year its Peh. However i must commend myself that i improve a great deal in Physics, which by the way, is my best subject. Gotta put more effort into chemistry. Maths haven't been much of a problem. Amaths maybe, emaths nope.however the HW component is the one that is pulling me down. Back to being tired. Yawn.
However, my physical tiredness cannot be compared to my mental tiredness. I must admit that i've have been thinking too much and being too sensitive. After a long chat with two individuals who i shall not name, I found that im not as capable that i think i am. This apply to other people. There is one person who is particularly unhappy with me and i must say sorry to that person for not being able to perform up to your standard. If there is a chance, i would like to explain to you personally. And some comments posted on this blog are just my personal opinions which a few individuals agree with. I do not regret posting these comments nor will i emphasize and spread these comments. The "talking behind my back" is getting to my nerves. I just wish people would stop doing this. its stupid. If you want to say it, say it outright. All this can make a person go crazy you know? Research shows that the mental harm of talking behind people's back compared to outright insulting is more fatal.
Anyway camp last week was a half flop half success, but no one should be blamed. And i must commend Linus for accomplishing so much under the mental pressure at that point of time. The same goes for yang en and alphonsus. The pumping on the last day took me by surprise, but given their attitude, it was just a matter of time before it happens.
RAMDOM::After the camp i vivdly remember dickson saying this: friends are like disposable utensils. I SO disagree woth that. Friends last forever. Those who forget you or you forget are not your friends. They are merely your aquaintances. Friends are those who share your interest, and get you to work hard with them. I have 2. just 2. and all 3 of us are from different CCAs. One's a chair, other one's a Vice Chair. yet they are still willing to hang out with a lowly treasurer. Thats wad i call friend. We even form a club lol.but ya just saying that friends are like part of you, something that you cannot do without.
The past week has been practice, homework and more practice. Final week till SYF. Gold with Honours is near sight, however ,people we cannot be complacent. That was what happened to the COP 6 years ago. Complacency. Gold with honours= mental stress. At this point of time, there is no need for anyone to tell to work hard anymore. The comm has been nagging since Speech day last year. Now its time to show the world wad VSCO is truely made of. it'll definitely be a tough fight, but jia you!
k tmr's my prelim oral exam. wish me luck. Don't think anyone would. Except the 2 of them. =)
first let me start off by saying i screwed up BIG-TIME for my CA. I don't know why... Isit because i haven't worked hard enough? Well i guess so. These few weeks have been hectic and hell yes stressful. haven't been able to dig out any time to really sit down and study. Unlike those Co peeps. Dnt is taking ALOT out of my life, however, regretting the decision i made is not an option. Since i can't have as much time as them, i will have to sacrifice. But sacrifice wad? I haven't been blogging, watching tv or anything. But the work just pile up and up.
Even my family realises that im totally STRESSED OUT. Poor time management? maybe. But effort to keep up? 9/10. haven't been able to achieve the one final mark.
Im tired. Physically and mentally. Everyday, i'd doze off in at least one lesson. last year was Ngs lesson, this year its Peh. However i must commend myself that i improve a great deal in Physics, which by the way, is my best subject. Gotta put more effort into chemistry. Maths haven't been much of a problem. Amaths maybe, emaths nope.however the HW component is the one that is pulling me down. Back to being tired. Yawn.
However, my physical tiredness cannot be compared to my mental tiredness. I must admit that i've have been thinking too much and being too sensitive. After a long chat with two individuals who i shall not name, I found that im not as capable that i think i am. This apply to other people. There is one person who is particularly unhappy with me and i must say sorry to that person for not being able to perform up to your standard. If there is a chance, i would like to explain to you personally. And some comments posted on this blog are just my personal opinions which a few individuals agree with. I do not regret posting these comments nor will i emphasize and spread these comments. The "talking behind my back" is getting to my nerves. I just wish people would stop doing this. its stupid. If you want to say it, say it outright. All this can make a person go crazy you know? Research shows that the mental harm of talking behind people's back compared to outright insulting is more fatal.
Anyway camp last week was a half flop half success, but no one should be blamed. And i must commend Linus for accomplishing so much under the mental pressure at that point of time. The same goes for yang en and alphonsus. The pumping on the last day took me by surprise, but given their attitude, it was just a matter of time before it happens.
RAMDOM::After the camp i vivdly remember dickson saying this: friends are like disposable utensils. I SO disagree woth that. Friends last forever. Those who forget you or you forget are not your friends. They are merely your aquaintances. Friends are those who share your interest, and get you to work hard with them. I have 2. just 2. and all 3 of us are from different CCAs. One's a chair, other one's a Vice Chair. yet they are still willing to hang out with a lowly treasurer. Thats wad i call friend. We even form a club lol.but ya just saying that friends are like part of you, something that you cannot do without.
The past week has been practice, homework and more practice. Final week till SYF. Gold with Honours is near sight, however ,people we cannot be complacent. That was what happened to the COP 6 years ago. Complacency. Gold with honours= mental stress. At this point of time, there is no need for anyone to tell to work hard anymore. The comm has been nagging since Speech day last year. Now its time to show the world wad VSCO is truely made of. it'll definitely be a tough fight, but jia you!
k tmr's my prelim oral exam. wish me luck. Don't think anyone would. Except the 2 of them. =)
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